Where do I start? There are so many things that I can complain about in my life that is going wrong. However, for those things that are going right, I am truly and deeply grateful. Sometimes, my life is like a whirlwind, a tornado, a hurricane. Who am I kidding? "Sometimes" is down playing my reality. As a single mom, all I want to do is escape the responsibility that is constantly in my face. And along with that to let go of this resentment that builds in my heart when the other parent is unable to fulfill his part. I question the fairness of this reality. And I see so many single parents who are pushing through it all. The struggle is real. And yet, something gets us up in the morning to keep on fighting, to keep us going, to keep on pushing. Let's go!!
For me it's three little faces who depend on me to be there to protect, provide and love on them. They drive me, they inspire me to continue to grow and strive beyond what I think are my limits. And I want to give them the best life that I can possibly give them. A beautiful and wonderful life that they deserve.
However, there is another reason that pushes me as well, and that is to never be where I was, ever again. Where I was, wasn't a peaceful place. It was literally hell trying to bombard its way into my life to destroy. And yet, I release, I let go, and I moved on. And moving on looks like doing the things I love, learning the things I want to learn, and experiencing and living life. And it starts by doing things bit by bit and taking things step by step.
Between my three warriors, my day job, building a business(es), finding myself, experiencing life, living life, and building a legacy. Distractions, mishaps, detours get in the way. However, I'm learning to show myself grace and take the small steps. I don't need to make these huge strides. I don't have to be like anyone else who moves faster than me. I learned it's not just about reaching the finish line, it is also about the journey getting there. I use to say, whatever about the journey and enjoying it, let me get to my goal already that is when and where my life will get better. And at this point, I have learned that I was wrong, it is about the journey. It is about the here and now. Because this is the only moment that we have, which is NOW. And how we look at it determines in our heart whether we are actually living or watching life pass us by. It's so easy to get caught up on the distractions, the busy-ness of life and working towards some thing. But are you taking time to stop for a few minutes to see everything around you? Are you able to see the beauty that is right in front of you? Are you able to see the blessings and love that surrounds you?
I'm not saying, don't have goals. Because I have several. What I am saying is to take some time whether it is five minutes, 10 minutes, or even a minute to stop and take it all in. And take it a step at a time. Well, that is what I am telling myself. Some steps may be bigger or smaller than others. A step is a step. And it's a step towards something amazing each time. However, what I don't want to do is miss a moment by keeping my head down too long that I don't look up to see what is right in front of me, which are all those steps taken of how far I have come.
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